tomorrow gonna be my blog's 3rd anniversary (31st Dec 2011).yey! happy bday in advance.well it has been ups n downs throughout this year..all the written here are based on my real experiences.but most of them through my observation,my thoughts,what i had seen n learned from other people n surroundings..so i will keep on blogging coz
p/s: dont forget to grab 31% discount on baskin robin tomorrow!
i have noticed people like to get MC on monday coz maybe they are still in their monday blues?or they just wanna extend their weekend rest?somehow sometimes people have their own intention to get MC.some of them just dislike to go to work coz wanna have rest at home.some of them would like MC to go for vacation oversea..some of them just want MC to meet up their scandal during working days.huh.some of them need MC to claim insurance.some of them just wanna have rest n loved being surrounded with pretty nurses.hurmm..n last but not least some of them just wanna get sympathy from their spouse.huh This world is MAD.
frankly speaking my life was sooo pretty plain simple without facebook..i was forced to create fb by my younger sister n the account exists in late 2009.so i have been wondering to deactivate the account coz i just want my simple life back then which apparently i was a low profile person ..but i just can't!coz this is the only way i can interact with old friends,cousins n families..since i am labelled to be anti social so i guess this is the only way for me to communicate..besides that i found it useful coz besides connecting with friends,i also connect myself to the outside world by current news,gossips n motivation that i get so fast within seconds!if i did not have fb, i wont get the stuffs so fast which i have to buy newspapers or magazines..i wonder if my life without fb..my life is all about job,family n few friends to contact.seriously like only few people i contact from 100 people in my phonebook.
p/s: if i die...plezz remove me from ur friends list.TQ
to be honest im not a loud person or talkative person.so people rather judge me to be quiet or usually call me anti social or in malay word is sombong.ok i dun mind at all with that coz i used to be judge that way since high school.coz maybe my face look so stern?or fierce maybe? one more time who cares??hehe since i moved to this new housing area,so last month we had majlis suaikenal.so basically when they met up in the party,they get to know each other n chit chatting like they know among themselves like ages!hehe n guess what i did at that moment?YES.you are correct.i was just sitting alone at one corner n waited for people to approach me.n yes ur right again nobody approach me becoz they just scared i guess,even though i had put a fake smile from ear to ear.muahahhahaha but at least my nearest neighbour sat beside me.n again i end up with only a friend!hehe
same thing goes at my office.people from other department talked about me that i used to sit alone at cafe,or go to shop in the building alone.helloooo who cares again?nak gi berak pun kene temankah?heheheh
but this so called anti social thingy really hurts me in my early marriage years..coz hubby's officemate said that im not that ramah-tamah.hellooo actually i already chit chat quite much with them.wat do u expect me to ask u hows ur husband?or hows ur sedara mara?ko ade berapa ekar tanah ?u know sometimes its just too much n i get enough of that!!
so now i dun mind if people still talk about this behind my back.coz im used to n i dont bother at all!but i tell u once u approach me i can be ur good friends :)
everybody talking about ombak rindu the movie.well..actually the novel was the first series of alaf 21 production that i read..so cheerss jgn jeles kalau nk cari novel ni time skrg mmg dh abesla.hehe hurmm i wonder whether the movie is as good as the novel?
2 days ago i received gift from my Chinese patient..i was so surprised coz i rarely received any gifts from Chinese patients.what makes us in common is we are moms!hehe i want to tell u the story behind the gifts.ok frankly speaking i am the person who is easily influenced by other people's attitude whether its good or bad.hehe n i am easily fascinated and admire people who succeed in their life whether it could be in their career,marriage or education.so this mother of 4 daughters really succeed in her parenting.first she is only a housewife!she never graduated in any university n yet she can raised,educate all her children to the optimum level.her first daughter just graduated from Australia uni,second still studying there also,3rd just finished her form 4 and soon going to do a level there also following her elder sisters n the last one just finished her UPSR n got 7as! coz she took mandarin subjects.ok then i wonder how she able to raise her children so damn well n i fell there was no difficulties throughout the journey n it seems all went PERFECTLY!jeles ok?at least in a family kalau org melayu mesti sorang tu drop out la,xpandai sgtla or xmasuk uni la.huh tensen pun ade dgr makcik ni cite.so basically this what she told me:
- she sent all her children to Chinese school since primary.this is becoz she wants to train their children to be discipline.she told me the school really gives u homework to do every day compared to sekolah biasa yg kekadang mesti blk uma xde keje sekolah.n furthermore they have to learn mandarin words.u know yg tulisan cina byk characters tu.she said they really have to study how to write n memorize the words everyday!if u dont know the words then u fail.
-then this mother taught her children to do puzzles since small.thats y she gave me the puzzles.to make u expert in maths.she said she will bring puzzles,books if go to eat outside.meaning while waiting the food she teach them puzzles n games instead of making noise at the dining table.and as far as i remember everywhere i go whether to malls or eatery outlets mesti ade depa bwk books kasi anak baca at one corner.u can check urself out!
-and during weekend she send her children to learn music n go to centre where u can learn maths at higher level compared to what being taught at school.huh aku rase kalau org melayu dh mengeluh dahla sekolah smpai ptg pastu weekend kene belajar gak.n what makes me impressed is she finished al the music sylabus n the maths program till highest level.kalau kita mesti memberontak kt mak ckp mlasalah,penatla.
-n i really admire this women coz basically she is the one who sacrificed a lot in educating her children dgn tiada rase mengeluh pun!her husband just cari duit jek.kalau org melayu mesti dok pikir laki depa akan kawen lain lah..akan tinggalkan bini lah blah2 la.n this women really seems not worry that part much but really worried about thier children's education.huh!stress aku tulis ni.hehe
-besides that she taught me to do savings from now. this part im really impressed.she saves a lot!i wonder how she can send her children to oversea with their own money since they all are not applicable to get loan from govermnet n all this onher own money!baju anak2 sumenya share2 n turunkan ke anak number 2 n 3.seingat aku dulu mesti aku marah kalau pakai baju kakak.hehe but her children didnt complain that much coz she taguht them to share in lifes.she also taught me to share books.she said her friends or cousins share school text books if they not use anymore.n they dont mind to get buku bantuan at school.i think this way really can save a lot of money!n she asked me to open education savings account for mia.she really stressed me to save from NOW!n look at her dressing really simple coz i think she must saved a lot!n again im impressed!!if u noticed kita jek yg nak lawa2 ,depa xkesah pun tu sume yg penting anak2 pandai.oh how am gonna do that?hehe
basically i really respect their culture coz they really make education as number 1 priority.n guess wat all the gifts above actually not the new one.the gifts belongs to her daughters.hehe see ive told u she teach me to share n the stuffs really in good condition n i bet the took care the stuffs so damn well!n at the back of the note,she wrote 'do call me this is for ur help' hehe she really wants to help me in parenting!cheers :D
its done n its unchangeable... it may ruin ur happiness in your future.... something better waiting for u... everything happens for a reason... the past is just a story n it has no power over u... it shaped who we are today...
since every now n then I've been surrounded with IT savvy people (those with IT gadgets + cool stuffs) so i think i wanna share my feelings coz im not IT nerd or IT aware or the-people-that-have-to-grab-latest-apple products.hehe so all this while Ive been updating my status in fb through nokia E71 using the kredits.kredits here means the money that been charged to my bill account.i dunno y i did not buy bb or ifon to surf webs.maybe im just too busy to think to buy the new one.or maybe im too lazy to go to IT store (remind u olls that im not IT nerds) or maybe i think buying the new one which maybe costs rm1500 may become more expensive compared to that i have to pay rm400 in a month for browsing the webs using E71.like seriously DUUHHHHH am i rite?but i just dunno how.really do not BOTHER at all even actually the bill reached about 1k per month.huh apakah??so now the awareness strike me lately so basically waiting the latest iPhone to be released.n fyi i also dun mind if i dun have any laptop or ipad n so on.as far as i remember i had laptop acer zaman thn 2000 yg dh rosak.n that was the last time i have my own.n after years no laptop to do assignments.n now thanx to this PC.hehe in other note i also dun have proper camera.all i have only sony pink which i bought in 2004.oh nooo siannya aku.n for the sake of everyone seems to have DsLR so i better grab one (itupun kalau aku ade mood nk belek2 kt kedai)hehehe
Is it fate or love?or fated to love u?sometimes i wonder y some people difficult to find partner in their life until old..some people may have 2 or more to be chased n to get...some people married n still have somebody else like them..i wonder how when people said 'jodoh yg baik utk org yg baik' does that mean the bad people have to marry with the bad ones?then how they themselves gonna improve their life together?somehow id rather think if one good person marry with the bad one..then it will balance n call it as fate?so confusing n i know i should stop thinking these nonsense!bye!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA KORBAN..lusa saya akan sambut di rumah sedara di melaka (in laws) oh talking about in laws..im very thankful n fortunate to have in laws who are very sporting,supportive,helpful n fun.dlm pada masa yg sama ramai yg di luar sana selalu cite pasal ketidakpuasan hati dgn keluarga mertua ..dan tanggapan itu salah coz i believe ramai lg yg hidup aman dgn in laws family..in fact we are like the origin family..anyway i just wanna share the behaviour n attitude of my mother in law which i think she is just like my own mother n saya rase apa saja yg dia buat lebih daripada my own mother..but of course my mama still the best :) what i have learned from her:
- sentiasa merapatkan silaturahim coz utk pjg umur kena rapatkan silaturahim esp dgn sedara2..n im learning this coz im not the type of person yg social sgt utk beramah mesra dgn org..so wat i did was try to attend any wedding invitations xkirala yg rapat atau kwn kepada kwn ke..n visit org sakit even sedara kpd sedara ke..hehe
- dia seorg yg mementingkan tarikh2 keramat.maksudnya harijadi,anniversary,konvo day.mesti ada hadiah n mkn2.sesiapa yg konvo mesti dia buatkan a bouquet of flowers on her own..n i think its a good example for my family coz will bond the loving relationship among the family members.
- she's willing to take care my daughter since she was 3mths coz damia used to cry a lot.n i bet i will take care of my grandchildren in the future.hehe
-she also take care of me during confinement period.she is there with me n the baby..in fact she cooked all the pantang food n also urut aku..n i think my own mother wont do like that..
-dia seorg yg sanggup buat ape saja utk org lain x kira dari segi wang,masa n tenaga..when she is sick she still cook n serve her husband to eat. i think i cannot do just like her!
- dia seorg mementingkan n mengutamakan suami dlm semua hal.dlm hal ni aku kalah n surrender.even she is sick,still cook for her husband,serve him first,check him if hes being left out if in a goup of people..betapa taatnya dia pada suami..n its hard for me to do so..
kim kardashian has divorced after married for 3 months.i am not shocked at all coz their lifestyle used to be that way.. i think some people was born to be single..yes only stay to be single can make their life more meaningful.so cheers to single ladies out there.
in other note..i believe marriage is an institutional life.u cannot married today n leave ur spouse the other day..bak kata pakar motivasi kita yg kene sesuaikan diri dgn perkahwinan itu bukan perkahwinan tu yg kene ikut selera kita..hurmm..n aku yakin pasangan yg kekal hingga akhir hayat ialah org yg beriman.seriusly shit.this is nothing but serius shit.IMAN.thats y sebelum kawin kene mempertingkatkan iman bukan kemahiran memasak ye kawan2..heheh n i really highly respect those married couple..dan sesungguhnya untuk mendapat keredhaan Allah adalah dgn mentaati suaminya.seriuss dowhhh agak2 boleh buat x? as the saying goes 'if u want to get annoyed for the rest of ur life,then get married!!' muahahahhaah
i recalled to talk about sex education to be put in school syllabus.this is is to teach about school children their private parts and how sex happens.i was so shocked when the 9yrs old girl got pregnant n she even didn't know how it happens.OMG.wat had happened to her?as for me my childhood life fulls with fun,friends,games n toys n i was not even think of sex that time.GOSHHH in my opinion i dun think its appropriate to have this sort of syllabus coz we have religious studies provided as one of school subject which i believed it covers this part of story.
in other notes,the government had create the obedient wives club where the wives have to treat their husband as if they are prostitute.duhhhh i dun think its appropriate in this manner of subject coz marriage life is not just about sex.many factors also play important roles in strengthen the love in marriage life.no doubt that sex is very important in marriage life coz it is humans nature to be loved n beloved but wats more important is the marriage itself is based on syariat islam.in this case for example,Arnold Schwarzenegger divorced with his wife after been married for 25yrs after discovering his affair with their housekeeper. can't u all imagine after been living for 25yrs?OMG its not just a number its a big number indeed! yesss no doubt sex satisfaction really important in a relationship but if we are muslim,we won't do that rite?
so do u wanna know when married men may stray ...?
- he reaches 30 -he's going serious stress or loses his job -he reaches 40 -he realises some younger girls are attracted to mature man -your children start bringing home pretty young female friends -Ur children all leave home -he reaches 50 -he retires -you are pregnant
(taken from women's weekly)
as for me the above reasons are some true based on my experiences :)
jealousy is important in relationship.yes it is indeed.becoz it shows how much we care n alert with someone u love..but over-the-top-jealousy can ruin ur happiness in ur life.sometimes u tend to rumble with yourself becoz someone is crazy over u.i wrote 'crazy' becoz they are more to psychology problem.in other way,curious also important in a relationship especially in marriage life.but dun worry coz women tend to have more senses if the husband cheated u.hikhik. but wat happen if ur partner is NOT jealous at all??do u feel lonely?or not worth appreciated?yes i admit that he is not kind of jealous at all.but i use the trust he gives to me wisely.but in other way round..until when u can stand this feeling?it is true indeed 'LIVE to EXPRESS,not to IMPRESS'. sometimes u may feel if the partner does not jealous at all,u will do something to make him jealous to get that reaction n feeling.OMG how weird this life could be?? :PP
baru nk update cite pasal my konvo..yes although its bachelor with honours but its still though n with all the way journey of bittersweet n nice taste of study..cabaran2nya ialah:
- masa bulan pose buat assignment till late nite n wake up at 4am to cont.pastu sahur.coz got no time bila seharian bekerja.
- kene slipped disc attack n got MC for 1 week.yes all these melambatkan proses menghantar asignment n boleh melambatkan konvo on time.n i forced myself to sit n study n the pain really painful in the ass n burning the spine.tp ku gagahkan jua diri ini.its true indeed HEALTH is WEALTH.
- mase pregnant kan mia..have to do lotss of reading n computer work.
- pas pantang 2weeks trus sit on the chair n buat tesis utk kejar dateline!
n i tell u its nice to futher study to upmost level!pffftttt
.... i feel education really important in ur life.no doubt.but whats more important to survive in this life is living skills.career n job wise also crucial to guarantee happy life for a lifetime.it doesnt work to tell school students 'belajar rajin2 utk mencapai cita2' wtf?i wont tell my kid this way.trust me they dun even have real dream job to be.huh.
... i feel confused whenn people said 'jgn fikir yg kita akan bahagia dgn apa yg kita x miliki skrg' does that mean we cant try or take risks for better future?i wonder how this philosophy really works.hurmm..coz i want to change my job prospect! n of course im scared to lose for wat i had now.OMG help me.pftttttt
...i feel every marriage life has the same story.i wonder how people easily tell thier misery about marriage life to me.i dun need to hear that coz i have my own too.cerita command yg dengar,laki suka main perempuan,laki kawen 3 n duduk 1 rumah.wow!yg ni aku terkejut coz she told me herself,n plg normal n biasa suami xtlg isteri buat kerja2 rumah.its ok to be normal in that way.huh but 1 dlm 10 ada suami yg rajin.how now?huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa verangan jeklaaa
...i dun want n wish not to have another kid.i dunno.maybe im scared to raise them 'alone'.yes i tell u its more to mother's burden to raise them.n i admit that im not strong enough.anyway quality is more important than quantity.hehe btw feel weird those who have 5 kids or more.she is must be super mom.n im not!!-sorry-
...i feel every person in this world has the same life,same routine to do n whats make the difference is the character n attitude each person.
...i like to do self-reflection of me in the past n for another 10yrs to come..life is too short to wake up with regrets.i feel it does not matter where u start but where n how u end up this life in a good n happy ending.am i right?
...yes i know im thinking too muchhhh n starting over is aint an easy job!!
.what sad about love, when u know others no hope for u being 2gether, but yet u still pray to make it work..its when ur mind says let go..but ur heart says hold on..and no matter how hard u try to forget everything, but u just cant..coz u still love them..dont know y?..its not how happy we are when with them..but how sad we are without them..yes,we may ...
i do feel now my life in a stagnant lane.i do feel when life becomes stagnant in every way,how do u get it unstuck?i know being a muslim,i need to be better every day onwards. but anyhow it comes soo daily routine n stagnant.i do feel i want to change my job prospect -to be involved in football team.somehow people's interest can change from time to time.n suddenly im so obsessed with football.dunno y..maybe i treat a lot of footballers at my dept.hurmm wat else?n for the first time i worked on sunday which i havent do for the past 4yrs.huh.this is all to unblog my stagnant life!n now i will hit the gym after office hours n i dun feel its a burden coz to get rid of the feelings.oh how damn akward.n i do also feel the life is a circle of life its just about the cycle of life.yes i do feel life is too short to wake up in the morning n feel regrets.oh God please save me..n i read in a book they said if u want to be matured ,u have to add 10yrs from ur current age.hurmm sounds logic though..yess i really feel this life is on a wheel..in another years u have to send n fetch ur children to school..then when they enter university i will become alone at home..then they get married,i have to babysit my grandchildren..then the last is to die.yes this life is damn short..probably estimated i able to live like for another 30-40yrs more.n guess wat its damn short i tell u!
gentle reminder for myself..
KAYA sebelum MISKIN, SIHAT sebelum SAKIT, MUDA sebelum TUA, LAPANG sebelum SEMPIT, HIDUP sebelum MATI.
i really miss blogging coz its unblog my feelings...its all about words.i really do need words to express my feelings.i used to express my feelings on papers (last time) n now i express it through my blog.thats y i dun mind if there's nobody read my blog coz i need those words to feel relief n wash away all my fears,anger n sadness n vice versa..so people jom muntah baca my blog ;)) TQ
yey!! last week i bought adele cd.her songs superb!she is just 23 n born in england.luckily she is not like rihanna or ketty pery coz im tired those sorts of songs in the music industry.oh frankly speaking i never buy original cd if i like the whole songs in the album.the first cd was linkin park back in 2001.HAHA! so better grab one now!
sebenarnya dok sabar selama 4bln n today i united with my unifi at home!woot2! that means aku leh lepaskan gian berblogging..okay frends...ready to rumble with my rumblings n nonsense!check it out.peaceeeee
ok im hardly breathing without internet at home.berangan nk pasang unifi tapi coverage xde lg di kawasan rumah ku ituuu..mcm tuttt.so many things to be shared (padahal gian nk lepaskan perasaan rindu dendam berblogging!) urgghhh well so many things happened past few months.dgn gosip khairul fahmi putus tunang (akku mmg suke gosip) hinggalah ke saat hari konvokesyen minggu lepas di bulan puasa.erkk biasala mat salleh bukan paham bulan pose tu ape.hurrmm ape lagi ek? oh di bulan pose ni dh byk kali tertinggal sahur n patient pun makin berttambah ramai lagaknya.aku rase depa ni saje sakit coz malas nk keje kot.siap ada yg datang bawak surat referral sakit tahun december 2010.apakah maksudnya itu??saje nk ngelak keje la tuuu.hehe anyway bos lah yg plg happy!kuli?terseksa.hehe oh btw lupa nk habaq mai..aku sedang berblogging di internet cybercafe wokeh di mlm2 ramadhan.sbb gian nk menaip perasaan ni so byklah korang akan dengar my rumbling.hehehe
oh so hows ur raya preparation?i still remembered in early years of our marriage.sume org sibuk buat persiapan raya,kami berdua mogok xnak blk mana2 kampung.so just stay in pj.yg bestnya pagi raya xbuat rendang or any raya food pun.pagi2 lagi trus gi klcc tgk movie jln2.heaven beb!hehe tryla. oh btw this year blk raya johor.yey!
wish u all salam ramadhan n salam aidilfitri in advance (sbb xtau lg bile lg leh blogging!) huhu
lately I've been surrounded by lots of wives who desperately talk about their marriage life in fb.fuyooo xtahan telinga ni dgr,sakit mata ni membacanya..ada yg wife baik,laki cari pasal n vice versa..things happen lah kan..nk buat mcmana..kalau x life not colourful!huhu bagus sgtla tu kalau colourful sgt.hehehe anyway i just wonder y in each relationship there must be betrayal?scandalous?uncertainty?cheating?n blah3 y can't they just do the right things??stress sorang2 plak dh.. but for me if we know each n every our responsibilities then all these stupid stuffs wont happen.seriously it's ok to feel sad,uncertainty,betrayed coz after all we are just human beings..but please dun let me stay there for too long.TQ :)
who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?