feel guilty..

if only i knew..

- i would buy all maternity stuffs n other nursing stuffs to breasfeed baby
- i would not take all the notes that i attended in antenatal class...coz in the reality it all depends on baby's style n attitude!
- i would buy breastpump..i mean electrical one not manual!!duhh
- i would drink milks anmum maternal that been prescibed coz my breastmilk sooo watery which indicates that i didnt take healthy food or enough milk i guess??
- i would buy nursing pillow coz it really helps u during BF!
- i would bedung my baby religiously since born! coz she wont want one if she can't adapt to it..
- i wont bf bb in one position of her head to both breast as being told @antenatal class! this is soo unacceptable! coz the bb now tends n prefer to turn her head to one side only!sioot punye teory coz they afraid the bb unable to differentiate between feeding or giving medicine..wth?
- i wont put little bit of BM to my crack nipple coz its getting worse! so i apply vaseline instead n it works! dump that teory too!shitt
- i would BUYYY all babys stuffs n needs eg: support pillow la..coz we wont know wat will happen to the bb.

but the REALITY is IT IS MY FIRST EXPERIENCE!!OMG! sob sob sob :(( i will do better for 2nd child!hopefully!finger crossed!